My mom is getting younger today. It's her 39^th year already. But believe me or not, she doesn't look like one at all. You may notice that most of the women here in the Philippines right now, when already in their 30's, their looks would suddenly change. I think it's because of the many problems that our country is experiencing right now. Also, family life really has a big effect on a woman's life. Instead of thinking of herself first, she should prioritize her sons and daughters before everything else. Post maternity also has a consequence. The once firm and flat tummy you had will slowly fade away. They say that proper exercise will bring it back, but you must exert twice the effort to get the Coca-cola body you're dreaming of. But my mom is different from rest. Know why? Just keep on reading.

            Allow me to tell you a few points about my mom. Where should I start? There are actually a lot of things that I can say about her. She's really beautiful of course, even if I usually tease her that she's not because she's getting fat each day. But that's not a hindrance for her, her confidence about herself is high and I'm good that she trust herself. Another thing, she's someone who is really nice, others might think that she's not, but when you get to actually meet her, you'll never regret it. My mom is also a very moody person. One moment she's happy, later she's mad. I just laugh at it and don't take things seriously. If I let her get into my nerves, we might have an understanding. That is something I'm trying to prevent to happen. She would always say, "Pano hindi magagalit sa'yo eh ikaw din naman may kasalanan!" and everything she'd order, I'll do. Its okay anyway, no hard feelings for me. Sometimes, I don't like it when they ask me to do something even though they can see that I'm busy. 

            The celebration was really simple. It's a good thing that I had a dysmenorrhea at school, a red alert which required me to go home early. It's really painful and I just can't help but curl down every time I feel the pain. When I got home, I helped my parents in preparing the stuffs that is needed for dinner. After preparing, I slept. Evening came and some of our relatives arrived. Most of them came from Quezon City. I love it when they're here because I enjoy the company of my cousins. Eating time came and all of the foods prepared were delicious. I wasn't able to taste everything because my tummy is already full and there's no more space left. I feel like I'm going to throw up. I can barely walk. I think that the food already reached my esophagus. A few minutes later, my mom opened the gifts. I was kind of shy because I haven't bought my gift yet. I'm glad that she understands my situation. I'm having financial problems right now because of the big amounts we have to pay for the upcoming sports event and nursing night of our college. Anyway, I enjoyed the day. I hope that my mom enjoyed twice as much, because it's her day. It only comes once a year and we must make the most out of it. 

             We had a meeting last Wednesday and I was informed that my name was on our batch bulletin board. Oh my golly! That is definitely one of the most shocking news I had in terms of school and academics. I really don’t want others to know about it and it’s very shameful. Even if I didn’t do anything wrong, others might think that I’m such a naughty girl or worse. I’m trying to make a good impression here, you know. It’s a nice timing for me to impress my teachers since I’m only a first year student. As they say, first impression last. But how am I going to do that if my fellow batch mates would have a different idea about my name included on the bulletin board. Maybe wondering why my name is there? I’m not the culprit in this situation; let’s just say that I’m the witness and I was there to state the story in objectively.

            This is where it all started; we were having our Logic about 10 am in the morning. One of my classmates is the center of attraction whenever we’re having Logic. The teacher loves him so much. Actually, I meant that in a sarcastic way. But it doesn’t mean that the teacher hates him. It’s somewhere between the thin line of teachers’ pet and a nuisance. Everything that Patrick does, she knows. Little by little, we didn’t realize that our professors’ patience is already running out. Suddenly, she just called for his attention and said that she wanted to see him in her office, along with the President. Wahhh?! Did I hear that right?! With me? What have I done wrong? Before we knocked on her office, I told him to keep his mouth shut to avoid further damage. He has already caused trouble inside the classroom and another one would be too much. I told him that I’ll do the talking and try to fix the problem since I am the president of the class. Afterwards, we went inside and the conversation started. I am quiet most of the time and I only answer when needed and asked. A few moments later, silence came. I said sorry for everything that happened and broke the silence between the three of us. I just can’t take it, because whenever there is silence, my instincts are something that is not so good will happen.

            Back to the Deans Office, our college secretary talked to us about the said incident. Why and what are most of the common question. I really don’t know why I’m still there when I’m just like a ghost. It was okay anyway, although I wasn’t feeling very good at that time. There are things that can only be learned by committing mistakes. Though it wasn’t my mistake, hearing it and knowing the different solutions and ways that must be done to solve is something. I also learned that there is something in silence. No matter what that is, I shouldn’t break it. They told me that I should let it take its own course and destination. Also, the Holy Spirit arrives during the silence of our hearts and minds. So I realized that I shouldn’t be afraid anymore whenever there is silence for it has its own way of making us learn and know our own mistakes. This problem tested my competency as a leader and I realized that I still have a long way to go. There are still many things that I need to learn. I’m thankful for all the persons who give me wonderful insights about the world. Who knows, when the right time comes, I might be able to use it properly and also share it with other people.

            Today was fun! I really had a nice time. Do you know why? It’s mainly because we went at the SM Mall of Asia. Maybe you’re thinking that it was my first time there but its not. It’s just that, even though it wasn’t really new to me, when my father said this morning that we’re about to go to SM Mall of Asia and watch a band. I just got excited! Even though there are lots of things to do and stuffs to study, I just can’t help it. I’m naturally a SM Girl. Well, that’s what they call me back in high school. I don’t know why but I just love any SM mall. But before we went to SM, we dropped by to other places first.

My grandfather badly needed a nice massage. The massager (if that’s what they call it, I’m really not sure) in Luneta Park was really cool. Why? He’s blind and yet that’s not a hindrance for him to do his job. He was really great compared to his companions. I think he knows every vein that runs in our body. My grandmother referred this person because she used to go there primarily because of arthritis. Anyway, while I was watching him do his thing, I can see that my grandfather was twitching and turning maybe because of the blocked veins. Guess what? I’m actually right. I knew that because my other grandmother used to give me a massage on my back and on my chest and it was kind of ticklish and painful at the same time. She would tell me that I have coughs because of that blocked vein. After about an hour or so, we went straight ahead to the SM Mall of Asia.

The reason why we’re at SM Mall of Asia my father said that he wanted some fresh air, and that he wants us to see the fireworks display. By the way, the fireworks display can only be seen every Friday and Saturday. We arrived there about 5:30 in the afternoon. We decided to have an early lunch. I really had a decent meal and it was so tasty. After that, we went straight ahead to the Music Hall. Too bad, it was already dark outside and I can no longer see the nice view. At least I can still feel the cool air the sea brought us. “Welcome to the SM Mall Of Asia,” the announcer said. A song from the High School Musical (I suggest you see this movie, it’s a youth-oriented movie produced by Disney) started playing and I found myself singing the lyrics. High above the sky I saw the bright lights. Oh my, I can’t explain the feeling. I just love fireworks. It’s like the stars only a little bit closer compared to the one in the galaxy. 

While I was enjoying watching the fireworks display, I felt something really weird. Suddenly, I felt a feeling of sadness. At first, I really don’t know the reason why. Then a very familiar face flashed at my very eyes. It’s like the fireworks formed his face. At that moment, I realized that I’m already missing that person so much. I was kind of wishing that he was by my side while we’re enjoying the very beautiful scene. But sad to say, all I can do is hope. Why do I suddenly felt so lonely? Guess life is like this. Sometimes you’re happy and sometimes you’re sad. They say that happiness is a choice but there are times that you can’t help but remember everything that used to be good but are already gone.

I was really happy when I heard the news that there'll be no classes last Thursday. I just said to myself, "Oh my gosh! How lucky for me!". I was cramming because there are really lots of things to do and many books to read. There's Chemistry and the topics about Gas Laws. It wasn't really enjoyable studying all those stuffs. Whenever I start reading and get myself fired up so that I would be prepared for the next day, I always end up with my book on top of my face. Very funny, right? There's also Logic and the symbolizations of a certain proposition. I was really having a tough time analyzing sentences and put them into symbols. Honestly speaking, the whole school work is so much to take. Oh, how can I forget my Math subject? Our upcoming quiz about the systems of linear equations (though it wasn't really that hard).

Just when I thought that I can use all day to study, read and do some requirements. Kaboom! All the lights went off. I thought that it wouldn't last for long because it was only 9 in the morning. The rain wasn't so hard yet though it didn't stop because it was already raining since Wednesday. Also, it is very common that electricity is fluctuating every time there's a storm. However, an hour passed and still, there's no electricity at all. I'm really sad because I'm a computer dependent person when it comes to doing projects or so. Think positive then I said to myself, "let there be light!". Sadly, I am not Jesus Christ who can do miracles. But I do hope that Meralco can.

I lost all my hopes that electricity will be back sooner as I thought of. I was getting really bored and my godmother asked me to go out with her. Just to stretch some muscle (yeah, even on a rainy day) and see some people outside. But when my godmother and I saw the billboard on the corner of our street along España road, it was bowing down on us. I really can't believe that the wind can do that. The billboard occupied half of the road of Maceda Street. Afterwards, I noticed the flood on España road that is very common to me (which is already above the knee). We have no choice but to walk on the flood because we are supposed to go to Mercury Drug to buy some of her medicine, batteries and candles too.  When we returned, we found a different route with no flood thought it will require a little more of walking. But its okay for me, because I'm still enjoying the cool yet strong wind and seeing all the jeepneys, cars and buses stuck because of the flood.

Well, so much for now. 'Til next time! Chao!!